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Man, I know how this feels, and it absolutely is grief. I cried for two weeks, like straight up balling, when we shut down our tech start up and pulled the literal plug on our product. Oddly, when we closed our bakery business it didn't hit as hard and I'm thinking because it was in early Covid times when we didn't know what was going to happen to the world. I think it absorbed some of the grief?

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Yes - totally wrecked me, but I was so blocked I couldn’t even cry. I was in fight mode for so long, trying to keep it all together and avoid the emotions—a big mistake! It made me such a mess. This was all during covid and so maybe i felt like I couldn’t feel my emotions because it would be too overwhelming?

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Jun 25Liked by Jaime Derringer

Thank you for sharing, and leading with such vulnerability - it resonates in a major way. As someone that has lived a life and career tangled in people pleasing - hospitality, closing my wine bar, which was necessary for my health and relationships, ended up being a grieving over a number of years. As I build a third business, in a creative and hopefully sustainable way, the growth is as you say messy af - since we’re learning to apply the healing, as we live in this world with others.

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I’m sorry you had to go through this, too. I am struggling with building another business… I don’t think I’m fully ready to do it in a different way. I’m still feeling like my old unhealthy habits will sneak up on me.

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Jun 25Liked by Jaime Derringer

Thank you - and absolutely. Took almost seven years to heal, and eventually growing enough to begin building again. Some of those unhealthy habits pop up, but now I have more tools to address them than I did in the past. It's a journey - and the medicine I found most helpful is grace. 🩵

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Jun 25Liked by Jaime Derringer

😂😅😎

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Grace? Never heard of her 😂🤣

Thanks ❤️🙏

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